Hey y'all. Just letting you know that I wasn't writing that because I was having personal issues, it was more to encourage other people to let go of the things that are getting in the way of their relationship with Christ.  He has been transforming me for the past two months, and I can't begin to express how thankful I am that He has saved me from myself.  I have met the most amazing guy, Andrew Pearle, and we have been dating for almost three weeks now.  We talked over the phone for a month  because he was living in Houston at school when we first began to notice the interest between us.  So far I have met some amazing people in the music business thanks to Andrew, and God has shown me so many things about my faults and why I have done the things I have done in the past through our relationship.  I am stronger now, much more than I have been in a long time. Praise the Lord for his grace and power. Love to all!

Let it all out
get it all out
rip it out remove it
don't be alarmed
when the wound begins to bleed

cause we're so scared to find out
what this life's all about
so scared we're going to lose it
not knowing all along
that's exactly what we need

and today I will trust you with the confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
but tomorrow, upon hearing what I did
I will stare at you in disbelief
oh, inconsistent me
crying out for consistency

and you said I know that this will hurt
but if I don't break your heart then things will just get worse
If the burden seems too much to bear
Remember
the end will justify the pain it took to get us there

and I'll let it be known
at times I have shown
signs of all my weakness
but somewhere in me
there is strength

and you promise me
that you believe
in time I will defeat this
cause somewhere in me
there is strength

and today I will trust you with the confidence
of a man who's never known defeat
and I'll try my best to just forget
that that man isn't me

reach out to me
make my heart brand new
every beat will be for you
for you

and I know you know
you touched my life
when you touched my heavy heart and made it light

-Relient K- Let it all Out

Why is life so crazy?? I just need a break. I can't wait until we get time off from classes over Thanksgiving. I am drowning, falling deeper and deeper underwater to where I can barely breathe. I miss my friends from work. I miss feeling great and like nothing bad could ever happen. I miss things being simple. Good news is that God is alive and well, and reigning in my life day by day. I can get through with the hope He brings my life. Thank God for giving me a reason to keep going. "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Philipians 4:13. Andrew, you light up my life.